Growing Up Too Fast

Every first day of school has always been a mix of sadness and happiness. I loved starting school, but I was also sad to see summer come to an end.

This year was just the same, yet different in ways troublesome to really comprehend. You see, this particular year, I started my senior year of high school. And with it came a long list of things I need to do, including senior pictures, college visits, applying for schools.

Moreover, I am relieved that senior year is starting so I can get it all over with, but I am also filled with dread to begin the new adventure.

I am so excited to see where life will take me, especially with my writing, but the nerves swarm me like mosquitoes on a hot, summer day.

I can’t help but feel like my life has gone by way too quickly. Every bump in the road has been worth it because it led me to this moment, but I’m now afraid the new bumps will take me somewhere I don’t know.

Growing up is taking the leap of faith and making something for yourself, by yourself. We have people in our lives, but when it all comes down to it, my decisions from here on out affect my life. And that’s stressful.

But it will all work out. I know.

Only, while I’m growing up, I’m realizing that I will soon be “grown up” and everything will change.

It’s all happening so fast, but I know it will all be great, and my choices will define me more. It’s only a few more steps.