A Virtue I Do Not Have
As I am anxiously awaiting several turning points in my life, my patience is consistently being tried. In a way, it is approaching at astounding speed because yesterday, I was five, and today I am looking at colleges, but time seems to be crawling by. Part of my frustration is spending most of my time at school with friends who will be graduating in 2017, while I still have another 15 months, 3 weeks, 2 days, 14 hours, 6 minutes, and 28 seconds (and, yes, I do have a countdown). I am growing tired of high school, and that is mostly because I am ready to start my career as an author. I am also beginning this new career with nothing but this website and the book on my computer. While I love this book, its constant need for attention beckons me night and day like a baby in need of food and coddling, when I have no time for it, and the words, though my own flesh and blood, grow tedious, and I itch to start a new one. I am continuing Undeniably Underestimated, but my patience with it is deteriorating. Cali’s story will not leave me alone, and it hollers from its cage inside my soul, begging me to let it out, free and beautiful. The editing process has been my life since May 2015, and this means I have also not written a wholesome story since then. I have an idea for a book, Pursuit, but I haven’t the time to write it, especially because my focus is on Undeniably Underestimated (and obviously school) for the time being. I am accomplishing all I can, and for right now, that means setting other ideas aside. 2017 is the year I will finish my edits and find a writing agent to help me publish. Side note: Query letters are extremely frustrating. Any advice?
Anyway, if there is anything that is trying your patience, know you are not alone in it. But, like everything, I think we all need to take a deep breath and realize that all good things come to those who wait. It is okay that the patience is trying us because that means it is worth it. Our dreams are worth waiting for.